So many things to adapt to, especially school. So many things to put behind, so many changes.
Really can't wait for this year to end. I need to find a motivation in life hahaha.
And so..... I was happy for a while- thought some things were gonna work out this time, finally realised that i've been living in self denial, which was like a 'break free' for me. Realised that i've been putting in too much time and effort for someone who doesn't appreciate. Realised that some things never change no matter how long it has been, which i was quite glad about. Well, during this period of time I learned to let go, learned to accept the old & new, and most importantly, i learned that people come into your life for a reason.
The night we met up for dinner :)
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But right now, I cant say that i'm sad, but i guess i'm in a state of being sad and disappointed. The greater the expectations, the greater the disappointment, it's true.
Can't help but get emotionally attached to people & things. when it's time for them to go, it hits you.
Though i expected this outcome, i didn't want it to come this quickly. I guess we came back to finish whatever we left off... years ago. And a lot of things didn't change, even though we've changed over the past few years.. never felt this happy before, but it'll all end someday.
I always tell myself if it's meant to be, it will be. but am i really willing to just let things happen and not fight for the things that i really want? no, but this time i guess i might just end up doing this alone.
I miss my girls already. How I wish we can be together every single day. :(
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So many things have happened, and i've been thinking a lot. Though I never understood why and how they happened, but i guess i should just focus on the more important things in my life right now, which are the things that I have - family, my girls, friends, and As.
Half of sexy babes; the people who keeps me going in this burdensome school world.
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The end of my emo-self-reflecting post. Can't wait for good things to happen..