Monday, July 8, 2013
Glad that you came
"One of the best feelings in the world is knowing that your presence and absence both mean something to someone."
Saturday, June 29, 2013
happiness
It's a Saturday and I suddenly felt like posting something even though i dont know if anyone still reads this little space of mine.
So right now i'm really pretty happy hehehe haven't felt this way for a long time already and i wish things would stay this way (or get better)
if you're following me on Instagram, yesterday I was surprised with eggtart delivery hehehe
really appreciate his effort cus it's his first & toughest try. his identity shall be kept lolollll
this is probably the most exciting part of my week sooooo hahahah LOL
during the really bad haze, met up with my girls and all the people we love :)
So glad that we're all happy right now like... We're so happy together hehehe
And FY made some heart-shaped cupcake for us. Love you babyyyy <3 p="">
And I was going through my photo album (looking for photos to upload, duh), then i found this picture we took. during 1st of june. and now i'm here on the 29th of june looking back at this day, it felt just like yesterday...
Now I look at where we are in our life now and i'm so happy for them :)
so happy that they're happy & that we're still so close despite the distance.
Saturday, June 8, 2013
omg half a year!
So hi. It's June already and I'm freaking out cus HALF A YEAR ALRDY AND I HAVENT ACCOMPLISHED SMTHING I'M PROUD OF yet.
Suddenly felt nostalgic and went to look through my photo albums in my lappy
I miss HK, I miss BKK, I miss taking crazy photos with bro (now that he's in Laos), I miss missing home, I miss studying for Os (studying for MYE now is even 1000x harder lol), I miss all the dimsummmm egglets food eggtart food, I miss being in a foreign place.
I miss 2012 and everything.. I miss guides and my sisters. I miss studying with my bestie... I miss everything that I can't have anymore..
BUT on a side note,
life's actually pretty good for me now. I am happy :) tired, but still happy.
Saturday, May 4, 2013
C l o s u r e
4 months have passed but it felt like 4 years. this year's been such a drag.
So many things to adapt to, especially school. So many things to put behind, so many changes.
Really can't wait for this year to end. I need to find a motivation in life hahaha.
And so..... I was happy for a while- thought some things were gonna work out this time, finally realised that i've been living in self denial, which was like a 'break free' for me. Realised that i've been putting in too much time and effort for someone who doesn't appreciate. Realised that some things never change no matter how long it has been, which i was quite glad about. Well, during this period of time I learned to let go, learned to accept the old & new, and most importantly, i learned that people come into your life for a reason.
(inserting random pictures so that this whole post won't seem like some emo-ish post lol)
The night we met up for dinner :)
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But right now, I cant say that i'm sad, but i guess i'm in a state of being sad and disappointed. The greater the expectations, the greater the disappointment, it's true.
Can't help but get emotionally attached to people & things. when it's time for them to go, it hits you.
Though i expected this outcome, i didn't want it to come this quickly. I guess we came back to finish whatever we left off... years ago. And a lot of things didn't change, even though we've changed over the past few years.. never felt this happy before, but it'll all end someday.
I always tell myself if it's meant to be, it will be. but am i really willing to just let things happen and not fight for the things that i really want? no, but this time i guess i might just end up doing this alone.
So many things to adapt to, especially school. So many things to put behind, so many changes.
Really can't wait for this year to end. I need to find a motivation in life hahaha.
And so..... I was happy for a while- thought some things were gonna work out this time, finally realised that i've been living in self denial, which was like a 'break free' for me. Realised that i've been putting in too much time and effort for someone who doesn't appreciate. Realised that some things never change no matter how long it has been, which i was quite glad about. Well, during this period of time I learned to let go, learned to accept the old & new, and most importantly, i learned that people come into your life for a reason.
The night we met up for dinner :)
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But right now, I cant say that i'm sad, but i guess i'm in a state of being sad and disappointed. The greater the expectations, the greater the disappointment, it's true.
Can't help but get emotionally attached to people & things. when it's time for them to go, it hits you.
Though i expected this outcome, i didn't want it to come this quickly. I guess we came back to finish whatever we left off... years ago. And a lot of things didn't change, even though we've changed over the past few years.. never felt this happy before, but it'll all end someday.
I always tell myself if it's meant to be, it will be. but am i really willing to just let things happen and not fight for the things that i really want? no, but this time i guess i might just end up doing this alone.
I miss my girls already. How I wish we can be together every single day. :(
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So many things have happened, and i've been thinking a lot. Though I never understood why and how they happened, but i guess i should just focus on the more important things in my life right now, which are the things that I have - family, my girls, friends, and As.
Half of sexy babes; the people who keeps me going in this burdensome school world.
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The end of my emo-self-reflecting post. Can't wait for good things to happen..
Friday, March 15, 2013
Its been a month or so since i've started school in a whole new environment.
Well.. its definitely not easy trying to adapt to all these new changes and everything, but life in PJC has been awesome. although school has taken up most of my time HAHAHA
Can't wait to camp with my girls this coming Friday. I miss camping & I definitely miss them too :'(
Monday, January 14, 2013
Monday, December 31, 2012
Page 366 of 366
i've been staring at this blank space for about 5 mins and i have no idea how to start actually. don't even know the purpose of this post.. shld i do dedications? reflections? resolutions?
ahh decisions, decisions!
but life's all about decisions, isn't it?
2012, full of ups and downs, people came and people left. some disappoint you, some surprise you.
like every year, I'd say i would have done a better job if i could do it all again.
finally 2012 is coming to an end. This year I've done so many things. well, graduating from ZSS leaves me with lots of mixed emotions. i've definitely met an awesome group of friends, sisters, brothers, teachers, and most importantly gained many experiences and lessons in life.
meh ok this is getting boring lol.
anyway i've decided to skip the dedications stuff. you should know how i feel towards you.. HAHAHA
the next few pictures pretty much sums up my entire 2012!
our awesome RIGHT SIDE CLIQUE ohyeah!
Assholes :) CANNOT STOP LAUGHING ONE LA
2011 - 2012 CLs of ZSS GUIDES!
being a part of the Guides family is one important part of my life :')
Do you call them your girlfriends?
AND us, the 3 musketeers LOL
everything's changed after we 3 got closer tgt!! my gayest bunch of friends hehehe. Muacks babes! <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">
the place where friendships bloomed!
And prom.... hmmm.
FOUR YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP AND COUNTING!
ex classmates!
And of cus, Family! :D
And wellllll thats pretty much everything to sum up my entire 2012 :)
I wish for good health (esp my skin lol) and happiness for everyone and myself!
MAY THE ODDS BE EVER IN YOUR FAVOUR!!
gonna meet my '10 years of friendship and counting' friends next week, finally!!!! :D
Sunday, December 23, 2012
To HK and BKK in 10 days!
December is almost coming to an end, and i can say it has definitely been a really fulfilling month spent with my family! 6 days to Hongkong and 4 days to bangkok :)
Avenue of stars at HK!
In the cable car to Lantau Island, which we had to queue for hours to get the tickets. It was worth it, since it was my first time there (based on my memory lol)
the cable car ride was fun, since i didnt have any fear for heights and i loved cable cars a lot. but the queue is such a killjoy. :(
ocean park! we decided to go since we didn't last year, and bro's joining us this round, so we can try out the rides tgt! its just a theme park with lots of stuff on the ocean lol. The rides were pretty meh, at least not what i expected. but thankfully there wasnt much queue, and we managed to spend a whole day there!!! which makes the entrance fee kinda worth it hehehe :)
Macau's Portuguese eggtarts! one of the reasons why we didn't miss Macau this trip. It's super good to me since i have a love for egg tarts!
While having dinner at Da Jia Le back in HK!
The next day we went to queue for the best dimsum in HK - Tim Ho Wan! the queue was super long, lucky we went early (we still had to wait about 1 hour), those who came later had to wait for like 2-3 hours. And its amazing how people were still willing to wait. GOOD FOOD IS WORTH THE WAIT!!! :D
but its really up to standard and superrr gooood. no wonder they say HK's dimsum are the best!
Cons are that the place is rather small, only a few tables available and everyone had to squeeze. but luckily food is served fast and the prices are quite affordable!!!!
My fav egglets!!!! Must eat this everyday hehehe.
That's all for my trip to HK LOL its short not becus we didnt do much or take a lot of pictures, im just lazy to upload all hehehe :P
BANGKOK!
First night's dinner at A no ther hound cafe, recommended by bro's Thai friend. it's a mix of western & thai cuisine, and the price is rather affordable in such a restaurant environment!!!
2nd night's dinner at some random roadside 'tze char' stall. i really like the thai salad too. mix of sour & spicy woohooo!
roses :)
3rd day's lunch at some ramen restaurant cus mum loves the ramen there. and its super cheap (as compared to sg) LOL
went to A&W for tea break with mum before we went to shop!
that night's dinner at Chinatown! wahlao the 'tze char' stall's food really damn good (and cheap). looking thru these photos makes me wanna go back there to eat again!!! :D
My fav from BKK! Mango sticky rice :)
tried the crepes too. like i always say, cheap and good! HAHAHA
shopping in BKK was likeeee HEAVEN. everything is so much cheaper.
what sucks was the weather and the crowd and the traffic jams. and also the scam-side of the Taxis lol.
And there aren't much to blog about cus we spent most of our time shopping hehehe :)
that's all for my trip. wish to end this year well! 7 more days to a new year. 2013, im coming!!!!
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
Graduation
Soooo its been about 5 months since my last post and i've actually lost the feel for blogging hahaha.
it has been 4 awesome years in Zhenghua and i have definitely benefited a lot.
well some days might be tough, some quite fulfilling. i have, as a person, been enriched with many many lessons in life, and im glad to be given many opportunities to do so many things i've never imagined.
My most memorable one would be this year, having to struggle thru the Os period and now that it's over, im missing those days.
I'm pretty sad about this whole secondary life coming to an end thing. but we have to go on!
Secretly wonder who would still bother reading blogs nowadays.
Sunday, July 8, 2012
to :) or to :( ?
So many things have happened so far. Be it good or bad, to me or to the people around me.
Well, it's officially 1 month to prelims and about 3 months to Os. wow, time flies.
Maybe the stress has gotten into us, whatever. this place has too much stress to handle.
Lately I've been pretty affected by one of my bestie. i'm worried cause she can't seem to get over whatever happened in the past and it's affecting her.
If you happen to see this, (i choose to not name you), i really hope you can get over it soon. well i know it's not as easy as i can say, but i know you will. You've got a lot of girlfriends around you who supports you and we all wish the best for you. It's time to look at what you have instead of what you have lost, that way you'd be happier, really. We know how you feel, we've been through all that too.
Now only you can help yourself get out of that hole you've hid yourself in. We believe that you can and you will. Waiting for that day you find yourself back, ok? :)
However, I'm still thankful for everything that I have. At least I've got a shelter over my head, proper meals, pretty awesome friends and also.. a family who will always be there for me. Really.. what more could I ask for?
Really hope all the people that I love will be well and healthy and nothing bad ever happens to them.
Though I haven't really gotten over it, i know i'm handling it well and it's not affecting me. at least i can say i'm ok. at least.
Well, it's officially 1 month to prelims and about 3 months to Os. wow, time flies.
Maybe the stress has gotten into us, whatever. this place has too much stress to handle.
Lately I've been pretty affected by one of my bestie. i'm worried cause she can't seem to get over whatever happened in the past and it's affecting her.
If you happen to see this, (i choose to not name you), i really hope you can get over it soon. well i know it's not as easy as i can say, but i know you will. You've got a lot of girlfriends around you who supports you and we all wish the best for you. It's time to look at what you have instead of what you have lost, that way you'd be happier, really. We know how you feel, we've been through all that too.
Now only you can help yourself get out of that hole you've hid yourself in. We believe that you can and you will. Waiting for that day you find yourself back, ok? :)
However, I'm still thankful for everything that I have. At least I've got a shelter over my head, proper meals, pretty awesome friends and also.. a family who will always be there for me. Really.. what more could I ask for?
Really hope all the people that I love will be well and healthy and nothing bad ever happens to them.
Though I haven't really gotten over it, i know i'm handling it well and it's not affecting me. at least i can say i'm ok. at least.
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Sunday, June 10, 2012
It's 12.44AM on a Sunday mor-night. I have no idea why I'm up writing this post. But I like the fact that there's no school for me for the next 2 weeks. So it's 2 whole weeks of playing & of cus, finishing up of my work and I hate to say this but.. studying for the tests coming up when school reopens. oh how I hate being a student in Sg lol.
I've privated my Twitter account again hahaha lol. For a reason only I know.
Hmm.. so many changes in my life lately. I'm still trying. and failing. but trying. sometimes I feel so lousy.
Trying so hard to forget, to treat it all like it never happened. that day will come, i hope.. i just dont know how long it will take. yes? well they say time heals all wounds. ahh maybe it's time i learn from my lesson.
I need a looooooonnnng holiday out of this place. I feel stressed even when I'm doing nothing lol. fucking NOTHING.....
Awesome picture we took during April wahahha i love my family :)
I've privated my Twitter account again hahaha lol. For a reason only I know.
Hmm.. so many changes in my life lately. I'm still trying. and failing. but trying. sometimes I feel so lousy.
Trying so hard to forget, to treat it all like it never happened. that day will come, i hope.. i just dont know how long it will take. yes? well they say time heals all wounds. ahh maybe it's time i learn from my lesson.
I need a looooooonnnng holiday out of this place. I feel stressed even when I'm doing nothing lol. fucking NOTHING.....
Awesome picture we took during April wahahha i love my family :)
曾经跟你梦想避开了风雨
寻找一个专属我们的天地
可惜明明相遇 抵不过天意
也许我的结局 是永远孤寂
原来我越爱你 越会伤害你
两个人的身影 是悲哀的距离
只要还在一起 我该怎样放弃
就让风和云相遇 演一场命运悲剧
才发现当天要下雨 后悔莫及
最悲的恋爱 是注定分开
我一直依赖 上天的安排
雪花苍白 变成尘埃
梦境已经回不来
最悲的离开 是永远分开
一个人承受 所有的伤害
你是否已化成 孤独的云彩
剩下我这一个伤痕累累的心
自由自在
原来我越爱你 越会伤害你
两个人的身影 是悲哀的距离
只要还在一起 我该怎样放弃
就让风和云相遇 演一场命运悲剧
才发现当天要下雨 后悔莫及
最悲的恋爱 是决定分开
我一直依赖 上天的安排
雪花苍白 变成尘埃
梦境已经回不来
最悲的离开 是永远分开
一个人承受 所有的伤害
你是否已化成 孤独的云彩
剩下我这一个绝望的心等待
最悲的恋爱 是注定分开
我一直依赖 上天的安排
雪花苍白 变成尘埃
梦境已经回不来
最悲的离开 是永远分开
一个人承受 所有的伤害
你是否已化成 孤独的云彩
剩下我这一个伤痕累累的心
自由自在
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
Friday, May 11, 2012
How's life?
....... well it sucks. i know i'm having it a lot better than some other people in the world, but really..
ahhh i just can't wait for Os to end, things should get better. maybe. it will.
anyway blogger looks so complicated now haha.
Friday, April 13, 2012
Project 16! ☺
This group of very irritating yet awesome people made my 16th birthday a very very memorable one :) So glad to have met them in my life and my secondary school life wouldn't have been complete without them! weeeeeeee ♥♥♥♥
Anyway I don't think anyone ever reads this little space of mine anymore... BUT WHATEVERRRR
Friday, March 23, 2012
Symphonie D' Harmonie III
Band concert was awesome!!!! The band, the songs, the mood, and most importantly, the company :)
Saturday, March 17, 2012
with the new CLs for 2012 :) It's been long since I've updated this little space of mine.. I think I almost forgot how it looks like hahahaaa....
Everyday has been the same.. but this holiday was quite fulfilling.. I did enjoy myself but i wish i had another week. But.. humans are always not satisfied. LOL
These few months have been pretty hard for me.. I really do hope things will get better.......
Anyway Niandong has a new album already hehehe :)
okkk byeeee =)
Friday, March 2, 2012
Sunday, February 19, 2012
We all get tired someday.. of trying our best and failing, of being taken for granted.
We all get tired of waiting for nothing, of wishing, hoping and disappointing..
No matter how many times I tell myself "it's okay", no matter how many chances we give each other, we know deep down this ain't gonna work out.
Life.......... people come and people go... It's so sad when people leave. :( :( :(
*positive thinking. positive thinking. stay positive.
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